Getting my hair done tomorrow (thank jesus, it is incredibly over due). How do we feel about the above for color (not style)? I'm thinking more brond, less blonde. I'll probably need her tan to go with.
Although our relationship posts have slid in number recently, I think a common and different theme has emerged in these past few months for our blog. Although I don't necessarily think the feeling can be encompassed in one word, Elle and I have made a lot of changes in the past few months in order to actively achieve our own personal happiness in every imaginable sphere of life. We left behind relationships/work/etc that made us as happy as they did miserable and have embraced new lives free of a great deal of that emotional baggage.
For me at least, instead of resorting back to my self destructive habits, I have started to actively make myself watch, listen and do things that make me happier. Examples: Michael Buble, Glee, bubble baths, spicy hummus, turning gchat off once in awhile, and long conversations with Mama Em. In short, I'm trying to get to know myself again- the one who didn't experience the great intellectual humbling which is law school or had messy relationships with friends and boyfriends.
Ultimately, it is completely up to you to turn things around- to realize that sometimes things won't be amazing...and that a shitty attitude isn't going to make it any better. Happiness isn't the same thing to everyone, but for me it's about finally putting some things behind me so I can better see all the amazing opportunities I have in front of me.
PS: Don't think Elle and I will be leaving relationship posts behind forever. Hopefully just the drama.
Excellent googling skills are an everyday must for you average gumshoe, but perhaps the most important use of these super sleuthing skills should be utilized before an interview. Of course you are supposed to know the basics of the person you are interviewing with- but if you do a proper researching job you could have an ace in your pocket AND calm some of those nerves. Knowing A-Z about the person you are facing is essential- because let's face it, it is likely they know everything they can about you.
Start With Google, Obvs: Put their name in quotes in order to find that elusive linkden profile. Although employees usually have some information on their company profile, seeing a complete professional history is key to knowing where they started out, professionally speaking. Plus, knowing where they went to college and grad school is necessary in order to know where they are coming from- as well as when to keep your mouth shut. They went to USC and you have pledged your undying love the Bruins? Something you probably need to know.
Find a Picture: Women know that interviews are very tricky business with more land mines than our male counterparts can even imagine. Skirt suit or pant suit? Creepy old man or cocky junior associate? Sexy cougar or uptight Pollyanna? We actually have to play to our audience. Example: wearing your hair down with an insecure, anal woman is pretty much an instant death wish....but with an okay looking average Joe? Interview gold. The best way to find out who you are dealing with is a picture. If google doesn't take where you want to to go, try pipl.com, which searches deep web.
Cut That Nervousness With a Dash of Blackmail: I'm always nervous before interviews, which is why I think it is imperative to find something equivalent to the old saying "picture them in their underwear". You don't need to actually find some dirty laundry in their past, but knowing that they aren't perfect could be just what you need. In fact, in my last interview I had actually unveiled a picture of my esteemed interviewer in a quite recent toga picture. I had actually seen his nipple before ever setting eyes on him. Let's just say I wasn't shaking in my stiletto's upon sight of this man.
And as a side note, although I know you know this: block all your networks on facebook, myspace, twitter and every other social networking device to which your name is linked. It was way too easy to see Mr. Toga's chest hair etc (hello, geographic network), so make sure they can't see anything you'd rather not be used against you.
Post the death of my relationship with Mr. Brown, I changed my life 180. New job, new apartment, new roommates(s), new running shoes, new cell phone, new haircut, new blackberry, new bed, new shoes, new scent (Lilly Pulitzer Beachy, courtesy of little Elle), new body lotion (bulgari white tea - yum), and most recently, new lipstick. Lets preface, I never wear lipstick, I like gloss, preferrably clear, or something in a ballet slipper pink, but its fall and in line with my "Why Not?" phase, I went on the hunt for some serious lipstick. Seriously, dark, seriously red, seriously awesome. Yes, that is what I wanted. So a few trips to Macys, Sephora, and Duane Reade later, (I covered the spectrum, did I not?) I found it! Bare Escentuals in Black Currant! I love it, I feel like a grownup, whereas when I previously wore lipstick I feel like I had broken into my mother's makeup, which as she can attest, was very messy.
Dating is fluid like the tide. It forcefully washes in only to jerk back out again. It knocks you over. It drags you down. It sucks.
You think he likes you, you think you have the upper hand. Then he pulls back drifting into the sea, where you know there are a million F-ing fish, but you’re not an F-ing fisherman. You wanted that one.
Damn All the Fish.
UM For sure, its like the Tao Of Steve (Horrible, yet enlightening movie), "The basic principle: We pursue that which retreats from us." Bah!!!
We all can get caught up in our day to day trials and tribulations, but the key is to maintain perspective (easier said than done obviously). Who would have thought Chairman of Goldman Sachs, Lloyd Blankfein would be the voice of realism? From one our fave finance blogs, Dealbreaker:
At 11AM, for the fourth consecutive day, investment bankers filed into the New York Fed. "I don't think I can take another day of this", a Goldman banker told Lloyd Blankfein as they got out of the Goldman car.
"You're getting out of a Mercedes to go to the New York Federal Reserve," Blankfein responded. "You're not getting out of a Higgins boat on Omaha Beach."
A super skinny Taylor Momsen on the GG set. The good news, she no longer looks like one of the runaways with that nasty hair bob. Long blonde normal locks suit her, take note Little J.
Am I the only one who found last night's Gossip Girl to be...kinda a fail? Aside from being wowed by Georgina's amazing google skills, she certainly puts Em and I to shame, the episode tot bored me. Like TOT bored me, as in, I was walking in and out of the room, I was FOLDING LAUNDRY, yes see, thats how unimpressive last night's epi was. Serena, you annoy me. Dan, you REALLY annoy me. Vanessa, WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS AROUND?
In any event, the recap is always a lovely thing to wake up to on a Tuesday, enjoy!
Toxic boys, we all had a few, dated a few, known a few, but if you are Em and I, sometimes you keep a few on retainer. There are the few that we allow to stay a blip on the radar, rather then doing the freeze out like I did with Mr. Brown, I still remain in (inconsistent) contact with Mr. Peter Pan. Mommy Elle and Big Red are probably reading this thinking, where the hell is she going with this.
Why do we keep these guys around? We know there is no chance for a real reconciliation (nor would we want one), in fact we know we don't even like them all that much. Maybe its amusing, entertaining, but mostly, its an ego stroking. I am going to play the part of an enabler and tell you why it is OK to keep these boys in your life.
Its harmless flirting which in my mind is practice for when you actually have to be on your A-game. You don't want to have rusty JV skills when you are actually floored by someone you like, so why not keep your skills fine tuned by someone who is an ego booster?
It makes me think that if this guy (who is relatively normal, just not for me) is still interested, then it isn't ME who is flawed, it is other people, its the Mr. Brown's and Mr. Boston's of the world who are relationship half-whits.
As long as you are in control, there is NO harm. In fact, Em has told me that she would veto these communications if she thought there was a chance I would get caught up in it, lose my cool, or fall under.
Its safe. Its familiar. Its comfortable. Its like that old gray sweatshirt you wear on Saturdays. The sleeves are ratted, there are thumb holes, the neck is cut, and god knows you wouldn;t walk out of the house in it, but wearing it around in the privacy of your apartment on a gloomy saturday, TOT ACCEPTABLE.
Free drinks? What? Is that not a good reason?
So let me make a little disclaimer (Em in her lawyerly wisdom instructed me to), while it isn't harmful, it ALSO is not a forward moving beneficial thing. But you knew that, right? Right? You are smart and you know won't find the future Mr. Elle in your discarded rleationship graveyard, but you also aren't looking for him there anyway. You know what you're getting, and know its just a temporal amusement.
It should be no surprise that one of my favorite classes in law school was Antitrust. As far as criminals go, a white collar one in a three thousand dollar suit are the best variety. Although it's not on until the end of October, a new show on USA called White Collar has recently caught my eye (1) because corporate entrapment is the sexiest kind and (2) Matthew Bomer, the star of the show, is such a babe. My roommate and I both agreed that although the long hair look is not usually our type, this show could be worth watching.
Julia Allison recently blogged this on her site, and for some reason, it got to Elle and I. Obviously, we have been super light on the relationship posts around here lately. Maybe JA was getting to something we haven't exactly been able to put into words.
I like me best when I’m brutally honest, too, but I haven’t felt like I could be that way for a long, long time. In fact, I’ve felt so attacked for so long that the ABSOLUTE LAST thing I’ve wanted to do is be honest - brutal or otherwise.
Point being: I can’t tell you how embarrassed I was to admit my recent development of, err … um … wanting a boyfriend. God, just typing that I feel like a loser. I’ve always gotten the impression that it’s not socially acceptable to desire such a thing in New York. A penthouse? Absolutely. A six-figure banking job? Definitely. Your own precious literary magazine? Yep. But a steady relationship? Nonononono DO NOT ADMIT WANTING ONE OF THOSE. That’s a WEAKNESS, and New York does not tolerate weakness. Weak people in New York get eaten, spit out, and then move to Jersey. (That’s just my perspective, of course.)
In any case, I’m all too aware how much ammo this admission must give my detractors, but I just can’t worry about it. They’ve been saying I’ve desperately wanted a boyfriend for years now, and I can tell you - as can Meghan or Mary, or anyone who’s known me during that time - that just isn’t the case.
Actually, one of the reasons I was so hesitant to say this at all is because I don’t want it to take away from my pet cause: advocating being happy as a single woman. I see far, far too many young ladies get caught up in the cycle of “If I only had a significant other I’d be happy,” and it just devastates me. I cannot tell you how important the last three years of being single have meant to me as a person - they’ve taught me who I am, and excuse the corniness, but there’s no greater lesson. You can’t buy that shit at Hallmark!
I also hesitated to say anything because I didn’t want anyone to think my new … uh … desire had anything to do with a specific guy. It doesn’t. I don’t know whether that’s a good thing or a bad thing (I think it’s probably a good thing, right?), but it’s the truth and I wouldn’t want anyone to think otherwise.
It’s especially hard to admit something like this because I know that guys I might want to date (and now, I guess, would consider committing to) could read this. And that would be awkward, right? (Although that may be a distinctly New York paranoia - that One Must Not Let Him Know You’re Interested In Love and Commitment!! Dear god, tell him you have a raging drug addiction before you tell him you want a monogamous relationship. ANYTHING BUT THAT!)
But I suppose I have to give myself the advice I’ve heard so many times from wise women over the last few years: with the right fellow, it won’t matter.
And frankly, I’m ready to step away from that mentality. I’m tired of the “Less is More” New York mindset on commitment. Lately I’ve listened to myself talk to guys, guys I’ve wanted to date seriously, verbally high-fiving them for dating around, for playing the field, for not being “emotionally available.” I used to say those things because I truly felt them. “Yeah, me neither!” I’d crow. “No relationship for me!” I’d add smugly. “Ugh, who wants to be TIED DOWN anyway?” I’d roll my eyes at the inanity of coupledom.
It’s a bad habit, this. And I’ve become disgusted with myself. Was I just saying that crap because I thought that’s what men wanted to hear? I’m sure that was part of it. The other was just sheer force of repetition: I said it because I’d always said it! I was on Dating Auto-Pilot and I needed to change course.
I’ve been so genuinely happy being single for so long that, frankly, it feels strange not to be. Does that make any sense? In fact, I shifted so quickly, and so dramatically, that at first I thought it was a phase.
It happened the first evening I was with my old college boyfriend, James, in LA. I remembered what it was like to have someone love you, and I just thought: “Yep, I’m done.” It wasn’t about him, actually - at all. I didn’t want to “get back together with him” (although don’t get me wrong, he’s great). It wasn’t about any guy. It was just me noticing, in a very obvious way, that I’d finished with a crucial stage in my life - finding out who I was, sans significant other - and was ready for the next stage - having someone to hold my hand, metaphorically and literally. I wanted a partner.
So. That’s where I am right now.
And the strangest thing has happened over the course of me writing this mini-essay … I actually feel better than I have in a week. Odd, isn’t it? Just being honest about something that you were ashamed to admit can be an incredible relief.
Perhaps even more so than getting what you ostensibly want …
I mean it when I say my children will have their choice of Polo and Jcrew Crewcuts. Who would let their children wear this shit! I am deeply disturbed.
HA, Yes. Depsite the fact that the previous post made have had undertones of crazy-sad-sap, I am fine. I am actually in a great mood on this gorgeous Thursday in NYC.
I came across this post earlier and I identified with it, sometimes I identify with posts or quotes from a a relative stand point, like a "I was there once", and not necessarily, "Where I am now". So, thanks for the concern, Em. I am a-ok :)
This is how I’ve grown used to seeing the world. Each flicker represents life, joy, family, laughter, stories, heartbreak, sadness, sex, boredom, death, anger, crime. There are billions of people on this world, maybe one is perfect for me. The potential and the opportunities are incalculable, but I only want the one in my head. i like thinking this way. i really do. it gives me hope. it makes me believe in love and that there is someone out there for me.
but i want the one who is around right now. i want the one who happened last april. i want the one who dropped me like a bad habit after kissing me in the rain. i want the one who is committed to not being committed.
One of the lovely new things that itunes is offering is the chance to download new series pilots for free. If you forgot to DVR them because you either hadn't even heard of it/ had no clue when it was on OR you don't want to deal with the often horrible condition of watching the show online (complete with annoying, not to mention repetitive, 30 second commercials), this is the perfect solution!
The other night I watched The Beautiful Life (in HD no less!) which was actually much better than I expected it to be. However, if you don't really like fashion and prefer Crystal Renn to Kate Moss, this isn't exactly your jam.
Tonight I watched The Good Wife (yes I know, how does one lead such as an exciting life as I!). I HIGHLY recommend this. It's a little high on the estrogen, but it's a great story of a scorned politician's wife/Georgetown law graduate (think Silda Spitzerish) whose husband has been indicted on corruption charges in Cook County (ahem, typical). Now it is up to her to go back to work as a junior associate after 13 years on the bench. The cast is great (Julianna Margulies, Chris Noth, Christine Baranski as a ball busting partner, and the adorable boyfriend from Don't Tell Mom The Babysitter's Dead). Seriously a must see- I am heading now to my DVR to make it official.
If we're short on inspirational stories on what perseverance and hardwork can accomplish, then read here. Command Sgt. Maj. Teresa L. King has risen to the ranks as the top drill sargeant for the U.S. Army. Strong, ethical, smart, tough, AND a woman. I am not usually rah-rah woman-hood, but its a feel good story.
There is that quote that you should become the change you wish to see in the world, its true, but more importantly, in your own tiny sphere of influence, you have to become the change you wish to see in yourself (Hello MJ's Man in the Mirror!!). Thinking that a brand new apartment or brand new job would magically make my life perfect was naive at best. Let me clarify, my quality of life is 1000% percent better. Do I love my new job? Yes! Is my new apartment huge and fabulous? YES. But am I Miss Sunshine 24/7? Not a chance. I can't keep waiting around for the next benchmark to hit.
I have found that the things that have made me happy:
Having time to see my friends whom I have been MIA from for the past few months.
College Gameday on Saturday! Going to the Penn State-Iowa game with Big Red! Lets hope Lee Corso puts on the Herky head.
Walking around the city at a leisurely stroll (NY lesiure pace, not tourist slow)
New fall clothes!
Pandora's Justin Timberlake station
Seeing Em in DC this past weekend (P Dot S - DuPont Circle was overflowing with cute UVA Preppy types - LOVE!)
New job's proximity to Penn Station (Ew) with its Llack of lunch options, and Mickey D's and Quizno's does not count and its proximity to Mr. Brown's work, ugh.
Last night's Mad Men was one of the best this season. Not only was Joan a main character in this episode, but the unexpected blood splatter was a jaw dropping moment (and also quite gross). Get your Mad Men recap here.
Beyond all the pretty clothes at fashion week, I love seeing what kind of hair styles the models are wearing down the runway. Here are some pictures of my favorites (pictures courtesy of Elle)
Sure this look isn't anything new, but Lacoste nails the casual Prepster style I adore.
Cannot go wrong with this classy and sleek look, by Thakoon.
Gorgeous nod to Veronica Lake, by Luca Luca.
I'm bringing back hat's this year- starting with this one from DVF.
Loving the throwback bee hive from Zac Posen.
Sometimes I just crave a teasing comb and some hairspray. Thank you, Oscar De Le Renta.
No this is probably not the most inexpensive way to do it, but it is EASY! Take your tops to the dry cleaner (if they aren't silk, ask for them to be "laundered and pressed" rather than dry cleaned, its better for the fabric, and cheaper!)and pack them in the dry cleaner bags. 4 tops, folded over once, voila, you land and they are crisp and perfect.
It isnt brain science, and it also isn't brian science.
As you may have noticed, Em has been holding down the fort while my life has been in serious transit (Sublet, Move, New Job, No internet, business trips to Philly and San Fran...etc etc yada yada). But for the best news, I will be kicking off my "return" with a trip to DC this weekend to see Em! Get excited!
Side Note: I hope to be back to my regular posting frequency by Monday!
For shame! My favorite part of Tuesday and I forgot to post it for almost 48 hours! Finally, after months of waiting: Gossip Girl Recaps are back and I could not be happier. Favorite part:
•Minus 1 for Nate and Bree's "We met on the airplane and then were making out the entire way home from Europe" scenario. Maybe we're just bitter about the fact that we fly coach, but we find it hard to believe that people actually make out with their seatmates on a plane ride. Even on the slim chance that you were seated next to someone worth making out with, and not a fat businessman or a crying child or a woman with a small dog in a bag, wouldn't it be super weird to just start making out with a total stranger? We know that we just confessed to making out with strangers above, but on a plane there are so many different risks! Like what if they had bad breath, or were a biter, or one of those people who do the darting-tongue thing? As soon as you realized this, you'd want to stop making out with them, but there you are, stuck right next to each other, with like four hours left to go on your flight. Would it be acceptable to pull away, put on your headphones, and say, "Okay, so I'm going to watch The Bourne Ultimatum now"? On the plus side, if it does work out, you'd get breakfast delivered, which is nice. Still, minus 2.
Charlotte Ronson: I really like this dress- but honestly most of the line was hit or miss. I really do not understand her taste at all. Click here for the rest of the line.
Charlotte Ronson: I actually think this might be Charlotte Ronson (sister of Samantha Ronson, aka LaLohan's Lezzy Lover). Actually like this look - coincidentally enough the winning look on Project Runway was very similar to this. Adore.
Cynthia Steffe: In the words of Elle, you can never have enough sequins. In this case, I agree.
Cynthia Steffe: Sea foam has never looks so good. Loving the indigo belt splitting up the ruffles.
Jason Wu: (as in Michelle Obama's inaugural gown) Super, super adorable line. I recommend checking the rest of it out here.
Jason Wu: Adoring these thick ribbon belts. Although I think thick belts are kind of going out of style, I love the cinch of the waste with something pretty and feminine like this ribbon type fabric.
Last year, Elle and I decided not to write anything on September 11th...because really, what do you say that has not already been said in a much more eloquent way? It seems odd to me that eight years have passed- as I can still very clearly remember Elle and I watching the coverage in our first period AP Government class as Seniors in High School.
Regardless of your political views or your feelings about the Iraq war, I guess all I can say is that I think it is important to watch some news today, or at least take a minute and remember how great our country is and how the days after September 11th showed how amazing Americans are as well.
Can I pull something like this off in 2009? My roommate assured me I could (subbing in jeans for the riding pants, obvs). Picture is from the failed Gossip Girl spin off, Valley Girls, which was supposed to take place in the 80's.
I fully believe the 70's and 80's had some of the most amazing prepster style- especially given the back drop of the other fashions occurring throughout those two decades (ya know, bell bottoms and hippie embroidery to sparkly taffeta and teased hair). Ah, the classics. Nothing better.
Keep up with ALL the shows here!! Notables today were BCBG, Monique Lhuillier and L.A.M.B.
Here are two BCBG looks I liked- many of the shows from today aren't online yet, so look back tomorrow!
I love the color for Spring and the pretty cuts out on the side. It is hard to see, but it looks as if there is so gauzy fabric over one shoulder which is a nice added detail. I have a feeling the dress may not lay as well on someone who isn't a model (because of how the dress bands slightly on the bottom), but super cute nonetheless.
Same idea as above with the cut outs, gauze and dress that bands slightly at the bottom. Love this color.
This recipe makes 1 serving at 496 calories each. Delicious! This recipe is from Fitness Magazine. For more healthy recipes, click the link on the top of the Fitness Magazine page!
DIRECTIONS Make it: Saute onions and peppers in oil with garlic and cumin for 6 to 8 minutes, until tender. Toss thawed shrimp, cilantro and lime juice with hot vegetables. Fill tortillas with mixture.
I'm not entirely sure why I have such a soft spot for baby animals in the past 24 hours, but just as an FYI, it's not as if I SEEK them out. I blame Jezebel and The Frisky.
I literally cannot stop watching this video. Kind of makes you forget this little guy could probably take someone out in just a few swipes of those adorable little claws (and PS, how cute is that yawn sound)
"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power" - Andrew Cohen
Honestly, it seems like both Democrats and Republicans have completely forgotten about VETTING these days. Apparently, Obama was the latest not to do his homework on his "green jobs" czar Van Jones who, according to New York Magazine, had quite the skeletons in his closet.
The most damaging disclosure about Jones is that he might just believe 9/11 was an inside job. The Washington Times discovered that in 2004, Jones attached his name to a petition that "calls for immediate public attention to unanswered questions that suggest that people within the current administration may indeed have deliberately allowed 9/11 to happen, perhaps as a pretext for war."
Jesus, staff, it is called google. Give it a whirl once in awhile.
Click the video for a 'How To' video on doing a french braid headband like Sienna Miller....although on further inspection I think it is a hair piece. Still, pretty nonetheless.
Thank god my parents are cool. Click here for the website "Oh Crap. My Parents Joined Facebook". My mom did actually join FB for networking purposes....but as the best mom I know, I'm pretty sure she wants as little to do with my facebook profile/status/picture uploads as possible. I cannot say the same for these other people (example above)
Gmail was down today and shockingly, I remained calm (okay, yes I did make a quick call to a friend to make sure it was actually all of gmail and not my internet- but it was also to berate him for trying to steal the jobs I am applying to). My calmness was probably due to the fact I still had I-chat (although no buddies with gchat down) and I had I-mail (although no one could read them...because again...gmail was down).
However, it seems that people were actually freaking out. Click here to read NYmag's quick recap on the "crisis" - but the real treat is the hilarious youtube video attached called "Everything Is Amazing and Nobody Is Happy".
Of all my food vices (of which there are many), I am lucky not to have inherited the insatiable need to snack/eat between meals. However, having numerous friends who cannot resist a bag of pretzels during that 3pm work slump, I know that such a habit can be a serious hindrance to your diet.
Cheer up though, because snacking does not have to be bad for you. Fitness Magazine has listed 9 healthy "On The Go Snacks" like McDonald's Fruit and Yogurt Parfait (only 130!) or a single serving of Chocolate Covered Pretzels (130!). Scroll through the list and enjoy!
PS: Fitness Magazine can send you health tips everyday through their newsletters including food and exercise tips. I highly recommend.