Last night I was on the phone with Mommy Elle and I was rattling off my agenda for the rest of the week, and I said tomorrow (tonight) I have my training for Big Brothers/ Sisters of America. My mother literally got a teeny bit angry, and asked why on earth I was involving myself with something else. My mother doesn't discourage charitable givings, but she also doesn't get why I am doing this. "You don't have time for this". I do. "Yo already do Jr. League". I am on a fundraising committee, and while we fund the community outreach committees, it is hard for me to count this completely as a selfless use of my time.
After I got off the phone, I thought about my past community outreach projects, and for someone who claims to dislike children (in general - I really do not like kids), a large portion of my charitable projects have revolved around children. But not just regular kids, special needs children, whether it be an inner city girls mentor program that my sorority was involved with, or teaching autistic kids to swim. I like to feel needed. Being 25 in NYC without a BF means marriage isn't in my near future, and children even less so. And thats fine, believe me. But, there comes a natural point in your life when you want to feel needed and relied upon. I know I won't get this feeling satisfied being a relative minion on the corporate ladder. Believe me, I love my job, but I'm not saving lives. And while my family and I are super close, they don't rely on me, they don't have to.
I am not throwing a pity party and saying that I lead of life minimal existence, I am just saying, that I have a fair sense of perspective and I am no one's or nothing's axis. To pretend to be would be lofty and unrealistic, but I just want to be important (relatively speaking) in my small sphere of influence.
At my age 50 years ago, people were married, popping out children, and were important in their spheres. They were needed and relied upon by various people on a daily basis. Being 25 in 2009 means very little, and most of my peers are struggling to find a career/ passion that gives them purpose. I'm just trying to inject something purposeful and worthwhile in my life. Fair enough?
Side Note: DYFU is Team Jen all the way, but we can't deny the projects and charitable givings that Angelina has committed herself to. If she has time to do it, I certainly do.
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